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15th October 2009

1:37pm: Breast Cancer update
Well, we have been thru all the tests and 09/29 I had a double mastectomy and the 1st stages of reconstruction done.  Charlie is more or less up to date, but here are the basic details.  All of the cancer was confined to the left breast and the mastectomy and lymphectomy got it all.  The right breast breast was completely clear.  I have been staying at my mom's and she has taken great care of me,including multiple trips to the drs.  She's feeling guilty about going on vacation with her brother the end of this month.

You know I haven't been scared about all of this except the night before the surgery, I got a little uptight.  I spent that night with Buddy, got up at 3 AM to be at BSA day surgery at 5:30, then it was wait, wait, wait for at least 1.5 hours before I was called to a room to start IV's, etc.  Don't remember much after that until the next morning though supposedly I walked down the hall and made a big circle around the ward floor.  I DO NOT remember. 

I have a great general surgeon who really cares about his patients, and a wonderful plastic surgeon who seems to mostly specialize in breast work.  I've also seen some other reconstruction patients in his office who were in accidents.

BTW. Guess how much the ginormous hooters weighed?  Answer to be given later.

Current Mood: cheerful

24th August 2009

7:21pm: Breast Cancer
Hi, folks.
Yes, I do have breast cancer confirmed in my left breast and it is an aggressive kind.  I will have to have a mastecomy of that breast.  Tomorrow is a biopsy surgery of my right breast to check the calcifications that looked suspicious.  If it had not been for the MRI that my surgeon ordered, the cancer on the left would not have been found.  I will be getting both radiation and chemo so will probably have to stop the remicade for my Crohn's disease.  Will post more as I have it.
Current Mood: stressed

26th June 2009

2:13am: Writer's Block: Close Call
Accidents happen all the time, and often we walk away miraculously uninjured. What has been your closest call with avoiding serious harm in an accident?
My closest accident that caused no injury other than some sore muscles and bruises for both my DH & I happened Friday night of Memorial day weekend 22 yrs ago on I-45 between Madisonville and Centerville.  The speed limit in Texas had just gone back up to 70 mph daytime/65 mph nighttime from 55 mph for autos, but stayed 55 for 18-wheelers.  I was just starting to pass a 18-wheeler when he hit a young bull.  The UFB (Unidentified Flying Bull) landed right in front of my Mustang and I had no option but to hit it.  I figured we were going to die.  Instead, we launched into the air and I started hearing my Dad's voice, "Give it some more gas, keep steering absolutely straight and DO NOT hit the brake's when you land!'  I followed Dad's orders to the letter and came down in complete control of the car about 10 yds down the road. I stopped on the side of the road, then moved the car into the ditch because another car hit the bull and they rolled.  In all there were 14 cars and pickup trucks hit that bull after us until the last pick up truck came barreling along about 100 mph and knocked it off the road.  They didn't even know they had hit it and DPS found them about 50 miles down the road with a busted radiator and a burned out engine.  We were very lucky.  I was 5 months pregnant and I didn't lose my baby then, and the damages to the car were relatively minor compared to everybody else who hit that UFB after it landed.  There was so much damage to the bull that there was no remnant of the brand left so we could not collect damages from the owner.

25th July 2008

6:37pm: Finally Moved
I haven't posted in ages but we are finally moved to 511 Jackson. We still have a few boxes to get out of the apartment but. we shoud have all of them done over the weekend. I still have 3 room to paint, but I decided to get us moved in and paint around everything. Jett is letting me use color in every room but the living room so I am exited. I'm doing the kitchen in copper colors with lapis and turquois colord accents. The dining room will be in the light copper from the kitchen on the walls and the pale blue used in our bedroom for the ceiling. Ourbedroom is going to have dark blue walls with a pale sky blue ceiling. Once it is all decorated I will post pictures.
Current Mood: exhausted

24th April 2008

11:30pm: Disappoinment and Relief


Well, life has thrown me a curveball again. I was not able to make it to CMA Beltaine as planned for James's handfasting with Lindsey this past Saturday. The day that we left for the event had winds that were blowing 30+ MPH and we turned around and came back home before we got very far down the road. I heard all about it from James on Sunday and then from my friend, Charlie, today. I didn't realize until talking to her today that I was really upset about missing it. It really hit me as she was describing it all to me, that to me this was more important as their official ceremony will be April 26, 2009. I feel like I have missed one of the most important events of their lives together. At least there will be lots of pictures for me to see soon. I have already seen some of them and they are so beautiful together.




One consolation of missing the event has been that I was still here in the Panhandle when my friend, Ambyr, needed me. She has really severe Lupus and became seriously ill while in Amarillo, and needed Buddy and I to come into Amarillo to bring her home to Hereford. I feel that if we hadn't been here that there is a good possibility that she would have died. That has helped me get through missing the handfasting.




Another good thing happened today. We have solved all of the problems of getting the new website launched. The SSL certificate is working as of today and I can take credit cards both through PayPal and my own merchant account. Now I just have to get the new stuff that I have made photographed and uploaded to the site. That part will always be a work in progress.




    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off Did it yesterday

  2. Eat more nutritiously Doing it, lost 23 lbs.

  3. Start writing on journal Not been doing do well with that.

  4. Organize all my supplies Completely finished.

  5. Start making jewelry again Got some finished, making some more.

  6. Start cleaning existing stock DONE

  7. Start photographing stock </i>Did more already.</i>

  8. Start working on website FINISHED!!! see www.lynnb-jewels.com

  9. Start cooking again Still not cooking every day, just don't have enough strength.

  10. Work on 511 Making real progress, hopefully, we will be moving SOON.

  11. Get apartment clean Work in progress.



Current Mood: contemplative

8th April 2008

1:56pm: Big News Update

Hi, all,


Haven't posted in awhile. An update to my Lj is badly needed. The doctors in Austin finally found out what has been wrong with James all these years. He has/had a bad gallbladder. He had surgery this morning to remove it and came through it just great. Soon he will be feeling better than he has felt in many years. Can't wait to see how that goes. We are going to CMA's Beltaine next week and are going to spend a few days in advance with James and Lindsey (his fiancee) beforehand.



In my own world, The Crohn's and Lupus are not majorly better, but neither is worse. We are just hanging in and coping. It has been a stressful few months, because my ex-SIL had a brain stroke at a very young age and almost died, then my brother was thrown from his horse and broke 3 vertebrae in his lower back. There was fortunately no damage to his spinal cord, and he is home and able to get around. I saw him Friday night at a family get-together and I was very impressed with how far he had improved in just one week since I had seen him last.



More good news is that I finally went live with my website for my jewelry. Go visit www.lynnb-jewels.com and see my pretties. I am still working on the Gemstone Properties pages, and we still have to get the SSL certificate to work right. But right now we good to go using PayPal for payment until the SSL is working right. I had a hard time with the shopping cart, but finally got that going. I think the site looks pretty good and it will be really easy to maintain and keep updated as I add new stock. That will be the best part as all I have to do to add the new stuff is enter it into the data base instead of wring whole new pages for each new piece.



Hopefully I will post again soon, just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive.




    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off Did it yesterday

  2. Eat more nutritiously Doing it, lost 23 lbs.

  3. Start writing on journal Not been doing do well with that.

  4. Organize all my supplies Completely fished that last week.

  5. Start making jewelry again Got some finished, making some more.

  6. Start cleaning existing stock DONE

  7. Start photographing stock </i>DONE, soon more to do.</i>

  8. Start working on website Mostly finished, see www.lynnb-jewels.com

  9. Start cooking again Still not cooking every day, just don't have enough strength.

  10. Work on 511 Making real progress, hopefully, we will be moving end of this month.

  11. Get apartment clean Work in progress.



Current Mood: ecstatic

1st October 2007

4:18am: Today is better

It's way early in the morning and I am awake again with little sleep. Hope I can get back to sleep soon. I'm a whole lot better than I was Friday. That was really scary. Yesterday, I spent the day just veg-ing. I was supposed to go to see a musical at the Amarillo Little Theater with my mom and her friends, but I wasn't real sure my legs would hold up and I started the day nauseous. She said I missed out on a good play and today was the last performance. I need to do better than this or I'm going to waste my season tickets.

While I was veg-ing, I started experimenting with my PaintShop Pro and learned some new things to do. I mostly just played doing some tuts I found online. I may get back into regular classes like I used to with this program. I really enjoyed it before.

Buddy brought home the used RV we bought and I am going to make myself get out there and look at what needs to be done to the interior today. I want to get it fixed up so we can start using it. Mostly it needs cleaning and I have some one lined up to help with that.

Think I'll try to go back to sleep now. I could really use about 4 more hours.

BTW, I changed my pic. This is how I look now.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously (working on it)

  3. Start writing on journal (doing that, too)

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website (yep, this, too)

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean


Current Mood: sleepy

28th September 2007

11:52pm: To better days

Today started out as such a great day. Even though I couldn't sleep last night ( I was so wired), I felt really great. I had energy like I haven't had is several days and not too much pain. Went to VA to see my primary care doctor and she was pleased that I looked so much better than I had 2 weeks ago. Buddy and I went out for a really nice lunch at Bennigan's afterward. It wasn't terrible busy and we really enjoyed the alone time to talk so we kind of lingered over our meal. Did a couple of small errands. Went to Michael's for some foam core board and had to stand in line for almost 15 min. because their registers keep losing the connection to the network. While I was moving from the line I was in to the new register that opened I all the sudden started feeling a little bit unsteady. That was the warning sign that the shit was fixing to hit the fan. We went to get gas and I started feeling like I could barely hold the weight of my head so I grabbed my special neck support pillow, then I got a really weak feeling and started zoning out. Buddy said I was in and out of it all the way home. I vaguely remember Ambyr calling me and I could barely get the words out to her because it was hard to talk. I felt like I couldn't control the muscles in my face.

When we got to Hereford Buddy pulled in to the Sr Citizens's thrift store because I was wanting to see if they had an old-fashioned tea kettle. Buddy went in by himself because I couldn't muster the energy. He couldn't find a tea kettle but he came out with this really beautiful tea set with gold Chinese dragons on it. There were cups, saucers, little plates for snacks or dessert and the cutest teapot with a bamboo handle. Then we went home. When we got there I was feeling a little weak but as I walked into the house it didn't seem to bad. I got inside and decided to head straight for my bed, but before I could get there, all the sudden, ALL of the strength went out of my legs. I landed of all thing right on top of the litter box that needed cleaning. (It's funny now but at the time I didn't think so.) It took forever to get me back on my feet. No matter what we tried I just couldn't get back up. I just didn't have the strength. Finally I rolled over on my hands and knees and literally climbed up Buddy. Thank the Goddess I have him because I don't think that I could get through stuff like today without him. He has his days when he's hard to get through to, but then there are the days like today when he is just so strong for me and I love him so much. He gets me through the bad times. I took what was supposed to be a short nap, but they let me sleep and I didn't wake up until after 10 PM. I ate some supper and here I am typing this and now I think I will probably go back to sleep.

I know there will be days like this again that start out so great and go south very rapidly in the future, but even though what happened this afternoon was scary, I have decided that with Buddy's help I can get through them. My days of going shopping by myself have to be over, but I look on it this way. That's just more time I get to spend with Buddy. I've started finding the silver lining to situations again. Yes some days will be bad, but it won't be every day. Some days I don't have enough "spoons" to do what I want to do, or I do too much and pay the price the next day, but it's not all bad. Yes, I had a set back today, but by tonight after my long nap I had some of my strength back and I know tomorrow will be better. I have decided I am going to look for those better tomorrows.

Sorry for rambling so much tonight, but for some reason I had a lot to get out. Didn't get anything on my list done today, but that's OK because there is still tomorrow to do something.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously (working on it)

  3. Start writing on journal (doing that, too)

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website (yep, this, too)

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean


Current Mood: contemplative

26th September 2007

1:11pm: A new day

Today is getting off to a good start. I got 7 hrs. sleep last night. I am feeling better now that the side effects of the remicade are wearing off. I really hate feeling like I have the flu every month. I think today Buddy and I will get some laundry done. I feel like I have plenty of "spoons" today.

There is a great new article on one of my favorite websites that I am trying to adopt the philosophy. It's a call to arms for those with chronic illnesses.
http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/2007/09/essay_a_spoonie_call_to_arms.php#more Hope you will read it.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously

  3. Start writing on journal

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean

Current Mood: cheerful

24th September 2007

6:23pm: Caught mistake

Just caught the mistake I made this morning. It is corrected on that link but here it is again.

Lynn Bell at Home

Still haven't been able to sleep. I'm really wired today, but will probably crash soon.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously (working on it)

  3. Start writing on journal (doing that, too)

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website (yep, this, too)

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean

Current Mood: tired
7:27am: Life's Better

Well, I've been up all night again, but this time I don't feel so bad about it. Yesterday I got the bed cleaned completely off and made up. I thought it was going to kill me before it was over, but I stuck to it and got it done FINALLY.

Also,there is a good reason that I couldn't go to sleep at all. For the past few days I have been reading both books and websites to brush up on my HTML skills. I decided to use my Geocities site and put up a minor personal website. It took most of the night, but I got it done completely except for one page that needs some graphics still. I even did the graphics work on the photos to get them ready for the Net. Believe me, those were big files. It really went a lot smoother than I thought it would. Definitely slower than in the past, but hopefully I can get back up to speed again soon.

BTW, the website is Lynn Bell at Home

Wow, look at what's checked off. Yeah!!!! Progress!


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously (working on it)

  3. Start writing on journal (doing that, too)

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website (yep, this, too)

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean

Current Mood: optimistic

19th September 2007

12:06am: What Do You Have To Say? - Arts & Crafts: My Inspiration
Where do you get inspiration for your arts and crafts?
 I make handcrafted jewelry and I get my inspiration from nature, photographs, ideas I see in magazines (that I put my spin on it) and from comments people make.

18th September 2007

11:59pm: Wednesday chaos


Finally got to sleep about 1 pm for about 3 hrs. Ambyr was admitted into BSA hospital about 3 am after spending hours in ER. It was a long night and morning dealing with everything. Buddy saw the cardiologist and is doing really well so he doesn't have to go back for 3 months. Didn't get much done today dealing with all the chaos on the phones. Maybe tomorrow.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off

  2. Eat more nutritiously

  3. Start writing on journal

  4. Organize all my supplies

  5. Start making jewelry again

  6. Start cleaning existing stock

  7. Start photographing stock

  8. Start working on website

  9. Start cooking again

  10. Work on 511

  11. Get apartment clean

Current Mood: frustrated

17th September 2007

3:36am: Sunday night, Monday morning early


Well, it's the middle of the night or early am Monday morning. I didn't fall asleep until 7 am Sunday morning and then slept until almost 3 pm. It's been another bad day physically (lot's of seizures and muscle cramps), but emotionally it's been a better day.

I showed Buddy my Make My Life Better list and he agreed it was a good start. He didn't agree with the order I put it in however, but these are my goals, some of them are very small. I told him just that. Some of them are things I can't do physically right now, but hopefully I will be able to in the near future. Today life is a little more optimistic.

Here's my list and hopefully tomorrow I can mark something as done.


    Make My Life Better
  1. Get bed cleaned off
  2. Eat more nutritiously
  3. Start writing on journal
  4. Organize all my supplies
  5. Start making jewelry again
  6. Start cleaning existing stock
  7. Start photographing stock
  8. Start working on website
  9. Start cooking again
  10. Work on 511
  11. Get apartment clean

Current Mood: calm

15th September 2007

7:49pm: Decided to get this going again
After talking to Diana, I have decided to start using this journal as a tool to deal with my health and the depression I have been feeling. The last several months have been really hard since I was diagnosed with lupus and MS on top of the Crohn's. Things really came to a head this last Saturday when after spending 8 hrs. in the ER, I was finally admitted to the hospital with a combination of Crohn's/Lupus flare and a kidney infection. To make it worse James and his girlfriend flew in for a planned visit on Monday night, but they were only here for 2 days and I didn't get to spend hardly any time with them because I was in the hospital the first 24 hours they were here.

Anyway, here I am venting about all the things wrong lately instead of finding something more positive to post about. I had a lot of seizures last night and today, so I'm really not feeling very positive. It's been a really yuck day, but I have taken 2 steps forward on my plan to improve my life. First, I made a list of all the things I think that I should do to make life better which includes posting here every day; and second, I am actually posting. Quess little steps is the way to go. Will post more tomorrow and hopefully the day will be better.
Current Mood: sick
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